~only u!!!~

u...
only u in heart
no one can replaced it after him
just u ..
i learn from the mistake
4 ever im waiting u ...
did u hear me ?
did u read dis?
pls come back to me..
i swear the best capture we can made
learn from mistake is the best learning
i adore u even u throw me out from ur life..
pls come back to me..
pls.. i need u..
pls........ i need u...

p/s : my dear pls give me a chance pls... :|

~i'm sorry~

i fell so sad lately..
after my paper last 2 day
i so regret with my performance
i fell like wanna cry on dat time..
but i try to hold it till i back to my room..
till next day..
i still angry with my self y i cant performance like others friend..
i want my life back..
my life in diploma..
i need dat spirit back..
at evening my mum on9 her fb
n ask me some question bout my cozy n my result too...
then i made a confession with my mum..
since i enter degree
im not performance well
i have lots of problem..
story everything to my mum..
mummy i'm so sorry cos hurting u.. :(
even u say it ok.. but i know ur feeling
u up sad with me right? cos one boy im down till now...
before this my mum didn't know the true story between me n him..
until i confess it then my mum know what him do to me..
im so thankful to my mummy cos understand me
but im so sorry mummy...
so sorry :(
i need tell u cos i cant face it by myself anymore
i need share with u ..
i keep this almost 2 years n half...
i cant hold it anymore...

~mummy im very shame with u, im useless.. im not good enough be ur daughter..~

~oh.... gosh my eyes!!!~

hufff ... today is 3rd day..
aiyaa...
nseb bek mata da kurng bengkak tu pom mkn antibiotik..
klu x pe jd aku x taw
smp sume org duk tgr napa mata aku
mak cik yg jual ayam percik tu pom ley tyn n tegur
mnges ke mata bengkak???
trs aku mnjwab huh?? nmpk mcm nges ke makcik??
mne ader mata sy sakit jangkitan kuman..
sob2..
if x reda algi bengkak next week dtg jumpa balik doc
doc ckp nk toreh cket adoiii
aku dah mgeletar seluruh tubuh..
byngkan mlm smp d cj trs col balqis suh tmn p klinik
smp2 klinik msk bilik doc terus die suh baring
aku dah tkot
nk x nk aku p baring
die p sental cuci mata aku smp kaki aku terngkat nk terajang dan mulot aku x reti2 diam
membebel kat doc tu sibuk tyn erh ni nak buat pe ni
smbil mnjerit2 kaki trngkat tggu mase nk terjang..
balqis yg ader skli lam bilik doc pom tkot tgk kaki aku dah trngkat2 nk trjang lagi lama lg tggi
kate balqis kuang2...
lepas hbes cuci..
die psn sal mkn ubt klu x baik next week jumpa die blik..
lepas sesi mata sese kaunseling lak tiba urm byk jgk pe aku dpt even tkot ngn doc tu ..
wahaha org byk ilmu pdi bace org..
bkn aku sorg je tkot si balqis pom cuak smp bckp x tgk mata doc tuh
hehehehe hrp2 mata ni baik cepat x yah la kne toreh ..
amin...

kwn2 doakan sy yer :)

~not forgot~

i'm not forgot bout that
alwes remind in my mind
but i just keep it
without wishes to u
bcos i'm afraid it will make me sick
because of your negligence..

i hope u understand
im not wish straight forward to u
but i still remind it
i wish to u by wind
i sent through it
believe me ..

wind.. n tears are my friend
no matter where i go
it alwes beside me
like ur shadow ..

mr hope happy birthday to you
i hope u fine
success in ur life
happily for ever and ever
ur are the greatest one dat i have
love u mish u so much
*_*
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~confession~

lulu lalala..
confes with frens
bout feeling
tooiiinggg2.........

thnx to raby n haly
ngehhaaa...
x dpt nk ckp pe ..
sbb sal feeling frust ader cm2 r ..
urm...

just see the candid pic
huwaa... :(
shame largh...

+sob2++story begin++listening others!!!++sayu n sedey gile tyme nehy++huwaaaa....++bengkak gile mata adeih malu kt korgg+

~fuhhh.... dugaannya~

Berkecamuk hati,hatinya sendiri,
Persoalannya kini,sampai bila mampu ku bertahan,
Mampukah ku bertahan?

Nampak ketarakah dilema di wajah ku,
Diluarnya tenang tapi tuhan saja yang tahu

Beginikah selalunya cinta,
Diakhiri sengsara,
Setelah dicurahkan semua.

Cuba ku dalami,
Sampai termimpi mimpi,
Namun apa yang ku jumpa,
Semuanya sama.

wah.. btl2 dugaan YA ALLAH berat sungguh utk ku lalui..

urm..

tarik nafas .. lega kerna ku x apa2..

pe dlm fikiran skrg adalah rindu sgt tebal.syg sgt2...

tu je aku rse ngehaa.....

kegatalan melanda ngehaa...

june.... i cant wait cpt2 la mnjelma boley ku buka sinar yg baru di sem yg baru :)

u.. u.. i syg u i rindu u ...

okey...

|*_*|

take care ...

~feeling~

adoiii perasaan marah yg membuak2 lam diri aku
tlh buat aku buat kerja pling bodoh+mngerikan smp tgn terkehel..
adoii nk mrh x t'thn2 aku
sakit btl hati ..

dgn rse hampa dan kecewa bwk kete pd pg tu
sgt la laju thp cipan..
pjlanan amek mse 2 jam
jd 1 jam 15 minit
korg byngkan aku bwk bper kilometer sejam

rse grm x hbes lg
dgn buat tart telur yg sememang nyer menjadik dan sedap..
tp tgn ku tersepit dlm mixer dgn pantas aku ttp suis ngn tgn sebelah kiri
aish............ skit hati nyer pasal...
terkehel tgn aku
klu tu ader lah pisau aku rse sume jari aku da x de ok..
dan selpas kjdian smlm aku dhntr ke kg utk berurut
tgn ku membengkak seperti belon
kata tok urat aku dah terpeleoot..
aish tu bengkak x ley nk gemgam n nk pgg pape pom x rse
adoii dugaan btl..
:(
aku sedey sgt ...
niat aku baik bkn jht pom..
tp org ley wat aku cmni..
so hari ni hari kedua tgn bengkak lg.. =(
skit x ley nk pegang pape pom..

dah la tyme urut kt kg smlm
dpt berita org tu nk kwen ..
adoiiii..
faizan nk kwn???
tsentak aku...
faizan ni admirer aku since form 2 ..
tp aku jenis x lyn..
setiap kali ikut kakak aku blik kg sure die sllu je intai2
x kire r aku duk mne tgh mkn kt dpur ke
duk kt berandar ke
sure de la muka si faizan ni..

si faizan ni tggi n good looking ..
agk femes jgk sebut je sure org knl..
klu lam sekolah tu die la org pling ensem r ..
klu dbandingkan ngn abg2 senior..

neway pape pom thnx to raby tmn aku tido kt kg smlm
hehehe
at least ley jgk luah pe yg t'buku kat hati..
tlps pe de lam dada
x kn nk story kt mak kot
pape pom tonite is 2nd nite me kne urut adeih..
pe la plak mlm ni dpt story agknyer

~march!!! it's march!!!!!~

pejam celik pejam celik march da wey..
urm..
exam pom udah br 2 paper
lg 2 paper nek cuti
mampos... 8_&
esemen lg ceiit...
mid break mesti x ley ronggeng byk2
tp the important one is ronggeng b'sama si dia
seperti planning ritu2..
aish hopefully sume ok la..

semenjak duk sorg2 ni aku byk ikut hati aku r ..
mne aku rse nk p aku p..
pe aku rse aku nk mkn aku mkn jeh pe aku kesah
pe aku nk beli aku beli asl aku happy hahah
tp fulus ku begitu juga le kering x smp end of month
so x le lah nk sosi end of month

aish.....
hdp ni mcm2 r ... btl la pe org2 kate
hdp cm roda..
sememnjak dua menjak nehy
pglaman hdp byk bantu aku survive lah ..
thnx la to balqis ,anna n mat pd support me
aku appreciate sgt2 kat korg b'3
sudi dgr sal kesah aku yg x seberapa nehy..

kdng2 rse nk mrh jugeee...
kdng2 rse nk nges juga..
tp sy thn ajer..
anna kate chill..
x mo nges2 ..
be strong
x mo nges2..
dgn kate hikmah dr korg b'3 aku bdiri skrg
without fearing with anything :)

tyme kita hangat bcinta la rmi bnr org ggu kite
bile kite tgk single habuk pom tarak dtg ggu ..
statement ni aku tuju kat ex aku..
aku agk pelik
sudah tiada kelibat2 msg o col lg dr dia n the gang..
urm..
sambil bkata lam hati maybe TUHAN nak uji kekuatan, ketabhan n keimanan hati...
but neway to ALF
udah2 ler duk kaco idup teman ,teman pom nk bhgia juga
adoiii...
dah bper spy ko nk psng mne aci teman x pnh psng spy kt cheq..
since 8 years ago no spy for u ..
cheq je duk spy2 teman , last2 spe bfoya org yg send spy yg b'foya ceeeiiitt...
semoga hdp mu bhgia lah bro.. ader aku kesah ?? ko je yg kesah sbnrnyer

k le nap2 dlu sok lab pg smp ptg..
jemaat balik kg hip2 horray ..