~frustrated~

last thursday i went to mjcs ktn
for my bro graduation day
i left my mom there
and i visit my aunt house to see new kitty
so cute
i like :)

then around 530pm take my mom and bro
and travel to kmn
my sis house
stay 1 night there
then my mind already set 1 thing
ehem2...
but got problem :(
i wish i will stay longer to talk n discuss
to see ### face,smile
to hear ###voice
i missed so much
missed so much
:((

~sayu :(~

sayunyer...
:(
nothing to do
nothing to say
nothing to share
no one beside me
just me alone
alone....

alone again
again and again
how to start it?
how to face it?
how?

i missed so much
but ..
i know u can't accept me anymore
i know..
u never even u say yes
i know it.....

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~told u so~

Looking at you now I can tell

That you in your new relationship ain't going well.

There's no reason your name should come up on my cell.

Unless your unhappy, but that shouldn't be the case.

Cause you said, said he was the one baby yes you said,

Said you were in love, cause...

When you left me you said that you wouldn't be

Coming back remember that, but I never agreed.

I hate to say it but I told you so,

Told you if you left that you were goin be miserable.

Cause he don't do it like me,

Or else you wouldn't be

Running back to the past

It was you that left me

I hate to say it but you know I'm right

Everytime you run you're comin for me late at night.

But right now you ain't got me.

Tell me where you're gonna be,

Cause I can't take you back,

No, my heart won't let me.

Girl, you know he can't touch like I do,

I don't see you trippin or flippin over his moves.

It don't take a genius to see he ain't that dude.

But you let him back,

You don't know what you was on when you said,

Said he was the one, baby yes you said,

Said you were in love, cause...

When you left me you said that you wouldn't be

Coming back remember that, but I never agreed.

I hate to say it but I told you so,

Told you if you left that you were goin be miserable.

Cause he don't do it like me,

Or else you wouldn't be

Running back to the past

It was you that left me

I hate to say it but you know I'm right

Everytime you run you're comin for me late at night.

But right now you ain't got me.

Tell me where you're gonna be,

Cause I can't take you back,

No, my heart won't let me.

If there are hard times it seems,

But you ain't gettin no sympathy,

No baby not from me,

Cause I told you you should never leave.

See you chose this road

So you gotta go it alone

Remember I told you so.

I hate to say it but I told you so,

Told you if you left that you were goin be miserable.

Cause he don't do it like me,

Or else you wouldn't be

Running back to the past

It was you that left me

I hate to say it but you know I'm right

Everytime you run you're comin for me late at night.

But right now you ain't got me.

Tell me where you're gonna be,

Cause I can't take you back,

No, my heart won't let me.

Can't take you back, noo.

~it's over~

We've run out of words we've run out of time
We've run out of reasons really why we together
We both know it's over baby bottom line
It's best we don't even talk at all

Don't call me even if I should cross your mind
Hard enough I don't need to hear your voice on my messages
Let's just call it quits it's probably better
So if I'm not returning your calls it's 'cause

'Cause I'm not comin' back I'm closing the door
I used to be trippin' over missin' you but I'm not anymore
I got the picture phone but baby your picture's gone
Couldn't stand to see your smile every time you dialed

'Cause it's over
Girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin' seven
Don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
'Cause it's over
I swear girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you been
Baby 'cause it's over

I still wake up every morning quarter to ten
I still eat my cereal right at the kitchen table
I can't even remember how long it's been
No trouble stayin' occupied

Oh I ask about you whenever I come around
I do what I can not to put my business in the streets
Last thing I need's another episode
Keep conversation short and sweet because

'Cause I'm not comin' back I'm closing the door
I used to be trippin' over missin' you but I'm not anymore
I got the picture phone baby your picture's gone
Couldn't stand to see your smile every time you dialed

'Cause it's over
Girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin' seven
Don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
'Cause baby it's over
I swear girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you been
Baby 'cause it's over

You know that it's over when the burnin'
And the yearnin' inside your heart ain't there anymore
And you know that you're through when she don't do to you
And move you like the way she moved ya before

And you wanna pull her close
But your heart has froze
You kiss her but her eyes don't close
Then she goes out of your heart forever
And it hurts you but you know that it's better

Girl you know it's over
Girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin' seven
Don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
'Cause it's over
I swear girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you been
Baby 'cause it's over
'Cause it's over
Girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin' seven
Don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
'Cause it's over
I swear girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you been
Baby 'cause it's over

~changes without limit~

change.. transform...
its predictable ..
4 me transform to the new life
to choose right path it good
for self confidence,for enjoyable,for thinking,for future
to forget the past
and moved forward with the new life

life is complicated
difficult to say
difficult to think
difficult make decision
difficult to express

way to make better
is thrown it away
by
cry..

when cry its give energy
it give the way
it decreased the problem
even not for the long term
but it the right way how to impress it

life so hard when we need to transform
from another chapter of life to another chapter
life is temporary
but many responsibility we must take
we must facing
we must decide
we must trying

ages change by the seconds,minutes,hours,day.month,year
same as responsibility too
when ages increase responsibility matter increase too..
no matter in which way it come
we must standby and make a correct decision for life

~myb~

dis is last..
last...
i will ignored
dis is final
final....
for me.
nothing can be changed
and will be replaced
without my permission
suffer+hurt
always remain in my heart
even u say 1 million sorry
it's not be changed
ur promise gone
no promises...
it's just for make situation better
not more than dat
u never changed
even i give u tyme to changed
u said u will
but u wont be
i must sacrifice if u dont want
i will
when its happen dont try to blame me
dont try to stopping me
dont try to control my mind
with the great word u can say
dont ever
when my heart is hurt again by u..
i dont want talk because it make me suffer
and
sad forever
:(
i wish u will be fine there
will enjoy ur life like a bird fly away
be a better person
and
have a great life

"no better word or great word i can say dat is my feel i thrown away"

~the winner takes it all~

I dont wanna talk
About the things weve gone through
Though its hurting me
Now its history
Ive played all my cards
And thats what youve done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play

The winner takes it all
The loser standing small
Beside the victory
Thats her destiny

I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking Id be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules

The gods may throw a dice
Their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear
The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
Its simple and its plain
Why should I complain.

But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say
Rules must be obeyed

The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all

I dont wanna talk
If it makes you feel sad
And I understand
Youve come to shake my hand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self-confidence
But you see
The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all......

~aura???~

aura ke??? actlly nk menulis mlm nieh cos nk tggu tanaman kt farm utk d'harvest..
almaklumlah rmi sgt pencuri2 yg begitu handal sekali.. :) d'sekeliling farm sy
pling sy tkot utk farm country story sy haish... nk je rush2 klu g mne2..
utk farm ville x kesah sgt cos x de effect pom cume
lmbt harvest tanaman tu x de value cos sume da mati:P
2nyte is 2nd nyte me at home after my final finish o yeaahh..
but not very excited wit cuti cos afraid about the resux will out soon..
aiyaa..
i know im not perform very well in final especially for paper EMG ...
nk nges je tyme jwb byngkan x igt rumus
taw mcm mne nk wat tp rumus tu luper :(
sob2.. tawakaltu allahlah...
and not excuses for paper LAW n BEAM huhuhuhu taw2 je r subject bce2 ni kan
byk la term2 define nyer term die nyer law2 lah aish.. senget kepala
t'mbah lak ngn gusi bengkak sbb gg bongsu sy nk tumbuh..
wahai cik bongsu kamo tlh membuat tuanmu menderita
dan bad mood sentiasa ..
(sepanjang penumbuhan die x tentu mase)
sbb pe aku da lama x update aku rse korg da dpt detact r kan ..
cos aku sgt2 busy ngn project .esemen.. n final ..
project n assingment kne submit before hari raya..
so nek raya trs cuti
aku x raya mne la
asik duk mngis kne buat byk kerja ..
sedey ;( penat sgt2...
x pnh aku pnt cmnih... satu lg sgt worried exam kot ..
diorg ley lak bergelak ketawa nk blik lambat2 ..
aku klu boley nk je blik kampus hari raya ke- 2 tuh..
tp apakan daya x sje2 je kne lempang ngn abah kang.. hahahaha..
aku raye cm bese r kt ktn .. da x de r tmpt len dah...
so raye pertama cm bese r kan
kg abah lu kt sg lembing huhuhu best2 aku sgt suke ok ..
sbb pe .. jeng2

1)air bukit bebeh..
2)kazen2 sume satu kepala (msk air sume)
3)uncle n untie yg begitu sporting n close dgn ank2 sdra :) i like ...
4)klu g ane2 lam area kg, x pyh kasi taw cucu spe .. diorg mmg da knl.
auuw terkenal yer.. :)
5)best dpt duit raye byk... ehem2 t___T
6)beraya kt rmh sedara2 jauh.. hahaha.. jauh r sgt kan setkt pekan phg tuh kui2
7)memalam tido reramai wah best kongsi2 cerita.. cume x suke celcom line dier mmg cm hrm
8)boley rongeng hohohoho .... asik2 kne g kdi aish best2 ..
9)mndi air sungai auuuwww dapnyer.... suke2 ..
10) mmg destinasi utama family ku oyeayy...


+selamat hari raya semua :)+


+tyme raya la jerawat nak tumbuh lak eishhh +

+ieka n me+


+jiah+ieka+me+


+athirah+angah+

raya ke-2 lps ronggeng bersama kakazen tgk wayang we all blik
we all tu ialah (me and my dadek (arief,abied n ija)
mummy n daddy dah p tghari lg..
kitorg smp rmh nenek mlm kui2 sje nk blik lmbt dah taw dah sure berebut bilik air aish ..
pertama skli if blik rmh belah mak sure x best
adek2 aku pom setuju oyeay ...
bgs2 korg ni ..
smp je cm bese la , aku da strt lemah seluruh bdn smp kaki aku rse
mata2 yg tgk ke arah kami sgt pelik ..
pe aku pki bju terbalik kah?
aku comot kah?
aku cm badut kah?
cam persoalan dlm pkiran urmm..
tnpa mls pk bkn2 aku trs msk da slm ngn sume aish mmg sume de mlm tuh
kitorg je smp lmbt .. turuk btol ..
we all duk kg blh mak raya ke -2 till 3 haish sabau jela...
ayah aku asik kuar g bdr je .. buhsan beb.. sumpah buhsan..
keje aku lak sapu2, kms2 ni yg byk koje ni
bkn stkt spu2 kms sgla bnde... sgla mak nenek aku buat kecuali msk..
msk mak aku n adik brdik die r kan ..
dan tyme tu la aku nges..
sedey dowh pnt giler aku rse
satu lg myb mood aku swing2 cos nk peod kot..
aish sal si sulphur la kne blik raya ke -3 urm..
sulphur a'k'a adek bongsu.. tlh dhntr kt nursery utk divaksin n rawatan
so kne tggu nursery si sulphur buka la br ley blik gnu ..

raye ke-4 tu pg kitorg blik 10 am..
urmm byk gile k kete n 1st tyme lam hdp aku aku tdo dlm bjlanan
ohohoho itu mnandakan aku sgt lah pnt ..
mak aku col kakak aku suh msk2 lauk..
so g mkn rmh mak kakak aku kt tg putat ..
lps mkn2 ..
cm bese la ank2 sdra aku mmg x sbr nk g rmh aku kan..
diorg bkn suke sgt duk rmh nenek dier
cos org tua tu kuat bebel
aku pom kdng2 hangin jgk sbb tu aku x duk lama sgt
setakat tyn khabar aje buley la ..

so we all pom blik rmh n si sulphur lak cm taw2 nk smp rmh siap ngiau2 lg ...
terornyer sulphur hehehehe gud boy syg :)

hari raya ke -4 kakak aku lak bwk family die, sepupu seppat dier
penuh rmh aku hohoho aku lak tyme tu membutakan ..
rupernyer diorg tgh gotong royong nak lunch kt rmh aku ..
urm... eish2 ..
wat malu je .. sumpah aku malu..
aku g bsh2 muka gosok gg aku kuar n slm ngn diorg dgn suar pndek n tshirt rmbt lak x berapa kms.. hohoh

tiba2...
ader laugan sebegini..
"nurullllllllllllllllllllll................."
hah.. debar doh sumpah debar siot je kan ..
tyme tu aku sgt addicted ngn farm so x mndi2 lagi ..
aku pom cpt2 je kuar dr bilik
huh nape pehal? tyn aku .. gluppp tln air liur..
sllunyer klu nurullll.... tu org pgill tyme nk mrh aku..
rupenyer mak aku pgil suh beli kerisik..
damn................. aku x mndi lg..
aku wat bahse isyarat kt mak aku ckp aku x mndi lg..
tp mak aku ckp x pe g je..
then aku pom bwk r sorg ank sedara kakak aku kan.. aku dgn suar pndk tshirt x b'tdung mmg
hrm r nk trn kn.. gile ke..
abg ipar aku lak suh aku bwk kete die dier suh test kete dier..
urm ok la best jgk tp i x gmr kete tuh..
t de family k la myb aku admit kete tu best :P
lps beli sume2 tuh
then mknan pom siap aku x mndi gak lg..kui2
lntk r.. yg pasti aku duk kt blik jerk... sbb terlampau crowded
aku rse rmh tu dah ckp besar tp jd sebegitu sempit aishh...

arround 8pm diorg blik hohoho sbb kereta kakak aku x muat so aku kne htr diorg separuh
blik sorg2.. dgn kete2 lak byk kan.. aku cm beser r..
kate kuat derak... so aku lalu laluan altenatif..
hahaha suke2 jeng2 bijak2

then esok tu bgn pg2... aku kms brg dlm beg cos flight aku 416pm
kete en f dah bwk blik kl pda hari raye ke-2 lg
since en.f nak ke v n l for games so traning awl..
kesengalan aku sibuk sgt ngn farm .. baju2 yg duk dlm mesin kering lom dilipat..
abah dah hon2 kereta aku glbah smcm
last skli mak aku amek bju aku lpt lam kete ngn sepetot2 eish2..
abah tyn pesal ni x ltk dlm beg
huhahaha..
mak aku jwb br amek dr mesin kering..
abah membebel spjng jln ckp tggnu byk kete la pape la..
tp smp kt airport kaunter br bkk kot..
aiyaa.. abah mmg cenggitu..
sme cm aku ahahhahaha klu bley kne g awl..
x ley lmbt n on tyme..
then check in sume2
aku mls nk msk awl aku lepak2 minum vitagen..
lg 15 mnt aku pom salam2 n trs msk boarding hall..
tggu lama jgk r sbb byk family kan
so diorg dutamakn cos ader baby.. nk je aku trik sorg dak kecik kan supaya aku ley msk cpt.. .hahaha...

lps diorg sume settle br la we all ley nek..
aku pom jln la pintas2 sume org.. cm x knl aku mmg juara jln laju huhuhu..
so aku msk2 smp je kt pintu aku cm terstop jap sbb tgk seorg mamat ni cm knl..
urm.... x sdr dowh pdhl kt blkng aku rmi kot org..
mamat tu lak cm terkejut n semacam je kan tgk aku..
22 cm pelik n terkejut r..
bile smp dkt cket aku tgk name tag dier
ABDUL QAYYUM MOHD SHARIFUDIN
oit... babi ko!!!!!!!!!!!! smbil tgn aku menepuk bahu dier
tu la ayt pertemuaan aku untk qoy hahaha
org kat dlm flight yg dah msk before kitorg td sume pdng aku..
aish.. bengong btl aku ni..asl la.. memalukan je..
rupernyer qoy huhuhu.. rindu gile sme dier.. wah dah jd steward u.. i like :)
qoy lak x sbr2 nk bercerita ngn aku tp die terpaksa wat keje die dlu
taw2 jela qoy spe x knl suke bercakap n bercerita
ya allah rindunyer kat ko qoy.. sumpah rindu giler2...
rindu cr ko ckp, rindu cr ko carut2 org,rindu gaya ko,rindu suara ko.. sume aku rindu..
aku rse aku la org pling happy lam flight hari tu
happy terlampau..
selepas sume penumpang tlh diberi snack n jus oleh crew2
so crew dah abes keje utk sementara..
qoy ajk aku duk kt ekor pesawat.. lulalala..
pdhl x boley suke hati die heret aku.. siot je sume org tgk aku..
kt ekor.. aku pom knl2 la ngn crew2 lain
qoy ngn aku pe lg duk potpet potpet eish2.. hahaha x keruan aku mcm2 cerita sial btl ko qoy..
tiba2.. ketua die dtg sumpah aku cuak..
ketua die ask aku spe then qoy aswer this is my ex gf..
hoho statement cm mak ayam erh ko..
then aku pom hulur tgn slm ngn ketua n say hye..
lps ketua die g aku n qoy trs la gossip haha..
itu ini.. bercerita al maklumla dah lama sgt x jmpa arround a year..
then qoy siap bungkus kan aku kacang MAS adoi
byk giler ok.. sgt byk satu beg plastik besau ..
tp aku dah jerit2 oit ko gile.. 6ti sume org tgk aku wat trn kacang kang kne tangkap dtuduh mncuri..
pastu die kate ala ko ni aku coverkan utk ko dun worry
aku balut wit newspaper k ..
then after siap2 balut aku pom duk kt tmp aku blik follow qoy , qoy bwk kcng tu n bukak compartment utk isi plastik beg serisi dgn penuh kacang.. hahahaah..
then lps siap simpan mnde alah tu .. qoy bercangut kt tgh2 lorong lalaun dlm flight tu
smbng bercerita ngn aku... rmi giler tgk aku
sure org tu kate aku ni scnadal o wutever la kan org kan ne taw die pk pe huhuhuhu..
then we pom tkr2 num phone cos since abes stdy qoy n rmi lg la dak2 len tkr num
just only me still using old num..
so qoy suh aku tggu die kat arrival hall because die der gap before terbang ke kk ..
so aku pom just tggu then blik ke cj after borak2.. n dijemput oley meimei n ben..
wargh ni satu lg kejutan
merasa kereta honda ben..
hehehehe wah best2.. klu la aku byk duit aku nk honda jgk smrt r ..
urm ben x pe parents loaded.. buffday dpt kereta honda tuh..
xpe la ckp sekadar naik kereta ben insyaALLAH de rezeki 6ti boley la beli .. :)
lps tu trs meluncur ke alaman
zati+balqis+kelvin come wit another car..
so we meet at alaman to decide want eat wut...
ben wanna eat poki2 but kne amek me so kne btl niat tuk eat poki2 ..
kelvin lak nk mam shushi
meimei lak nk mkn nandos
me+adek+balqis dah decide nk mam johnnnysss
so pecah 33..
huhuh...
seperti bese r
klu mam johnysss amek set lerh
then seperti biasa mamat keje kdi tu mernagkap scnadal zati omar
senyum2 adoiii aku da agk dah sah jd cenggitu
x best le mam org perhati ..
so lps mkn aku g watson beli brg2 mandian
ben +meimei+kelvin buy big apple donut seorg setiap kotak..
utk supper cos nk stdy


+pheeewiittt, hahahahaha T___T candid by anna+

so lps sume dah ok we all blik ke kmpus :)
aku lak cm bese r
smp kampus trs la kemas2 bju2 beg2
then trs wat kuar buku ecp huhu2
bce a bit
hafal
bce a bit hafal
tido pom x tido sgt otk pusing2 igt pe aku bce
otk mmg x relax la .. jln je
smp pg
mndi pom duk igt pe aku bce
alhamdulialh pe aku bce n hafal
sume ley aku igt lam exam ..
mtk2 x de ajaran sesat or pape la erh
amin .. :)

so seterus nya dan setrus nya mse berlalu..
last paper aku hari senin
pagi n petang lak tuh
hari selasa aku g servis kete n g pkns wit bz utk beli jubah mak aku utk g mekah.. :)
i like dat jubah.. dat jubah mak suh belikan tp aku lanjew la .. sbgi hadiah and wakil aku jaga mak mse kat mekah :)
semoga mak sehat kat sana 6ti, dan dpt mnjalankan ibadah haji dgn selamat, sehat dan penuh keberkatan amin...
ya allah kau permudahkanlah segala urusan ibu ku sebelum ia menjejakkan ke kota suci dan sehiggalah ibu ku menjejakkan kaki ke malaysia kembali.. dan kau permudahkanalh ibuku dlm melakukan segala ibadah2 haji dengan rahmatmu dan aku memohan agar ibuku sentiasa dlm keadaan yg sehat untuk mengerjakan ibadah hajinya. aku hamba yg lemah lagi hina ini memohon kepada mu supaya semuanya berjalan dgn lancar amin ya rabbi a'lamin


+test jubah +


+suke sgt jubah ni cos ader button2 tu cantik2+

smp ke cj arroun 8pm
blik trs mndi n slt..
then wrapping present for my niece, nephew n my lil sis..


+present ikhwan, die suke sgt+

n trs tido cos next mowning nk blik ganu drive lak
before blik nk meet AA
ouh br trgt after 1 day me going back to campus my nephew lak accident..
hit by car.. urm.. kaki teruk.. tkot tgk..
cm dging hancus..
ei scary ..


+kaki ikhwan dah x hensem.. parut+

so p la meet AA
tggu punyer tggu di x smp2
aku pom tgk jam dah kul 11
jji ngn pali aku trn dr cj kul 11
tp ni 11 duk tercegat dpn bilik AA
so aku decide jumpa dr tan tyn sal AA aku ni .
Dr tan ckp die x pasti AA aku ni da dtg lom
urm so diorg pom send email to AA aku n col tp line busy.. hurm..
Dr tan said AA aku ader kt another office..
then aku pom blah la
n trs grk ke ganu ..
arround 12 30 jgk aku kuar dr cj
smp gambang amke pali arround 330
then tuju ke rmh kakak aku nk tgk ank sedara
then kul 5 tlk blik ke tgganu
send pali blik rmh die n aku lak drive blik rmh.. otw nk blik mak col
suh g rmh kakak kpd kakak aku kt kg.. so aku pom g la kg....
duk jap pastu ade org nk dtg beraya kt rmhtyme tu arroun 830pm
so blik rmh huhu2.
aku cm biasa r cr sulphur dlu..
tp lom bkk pintu sulphur dah hulur tgn die..
hehhe rindunyew msk2 rmh trs dukung si sulphur hhehehe

adeih pnt giler aku pom tdo smbl on9
hehehehhehe
tghrii td p amke adek aku kt skul die br blik dr camping..
so duk rmh je rini..
dan ptg td tamat la riwayat 2nd modem wireless tent aku
kne panah petir aish..
nk kne beli br
so skrg ni aku gune line tenet pejabt mak aku lalalalala seronok ley on sbb nak harvest farm
tp x seronok sbb kne duk kt ruang tamu .. hurm :(
k le dat oll..
picc msk kemedian k
daa mownin sume :)